Since you have been in the organization a long time you know how it works. The only time they really have any interest in you is when you are coming into it or leaving it.
Like all cults, they really don't like you leaving it. You say you still want these people in your life but you don't want to believe the way they do....that makes sense to you of course because you have stop drinking the Kool Aid but it wont to them.
Bottom line it can be done but it's going to be tricky....It's like making love to the Black Widow spider you might be able to do it but you might get eaten too.
Good Luck
Keith Casarona